Complete Surrender

I am not one to write very often. But I felt the need to write today. I just heard the most powerful message ever on Daniel chapter 1. It was not your usual sermon. I did record it because I already forgot most of it. That does not mean the message was not powerful. I have a poor memory, hence the need to record it.

I walked about from the sermon with a feeling that I must make some changes in my life. I have been lazy and non committal. Meaning, when I attempt to make a change for the good, I always end of falling short of my goals. Tonight I learned that it is because I compromise in the littlest things. These little compromises make it easy to compromise in the bigger things. Daniel "PURPOSED IN HIS HEART" that he would not defile his body. That he would not compromise. That is where I have fallen short. I find things too difficult because I do tend to go by feelings. "I don't feel like getting up early to pray." "I don't feel like eating healthy today." "I feel too tired to get up to read my Bible." Yet Daniel purposed in his heart he would not compromise before his trials began. I must purpose in my heart to give up the things that God calls unclean or unholy. I must purpose in my heart to do the things God not only expects me to do but wants me to do because He loves me. I am weak but He is strong.

I ask all who read this to please pray earnestly for me. I am going to attempt to surrender all to my Father and allow Him to work in me that which He purposes in His heart to do in me. I am going to list some things that I feel that the Lord is asking me to surrender to Him and I am going to ask you to pray for these areas. Yes, I do need to be held accountable, thus I am going to list them.

My biggest weakness is TV. I wish to stay away from the television. This is not too difficult with the living arrangements I have at this time. But the biggest issue is NCIS. I don't watch it on TV, but online. Once it has aired in the states, I watch in on the internet. Every Wednesday night here on Guam (stateside early Wednesday morning) I watch NCIS. You say this is no big deal. However, this is a little compromise. I will sit in front of the TV or the internet all day if I can. I am addicted to NCIS and wish to surrender it to the Lord. It will be difficult. Yet I wish to purpose in my heart that it will be easy to give up.

The other weakness is I am too tired to read and have worship in the morning and the evening. I stay up late (on the internet) and have a hard time getting up for worship. Even though I have worship at work with my coworker, I must have my own. I must have my cup full before I can share with my coworker. I will purpose in my heart to have worship alone with my Father every morning before going to work.

I am also going to purpose in my heart to eat healthy and to exercise. No more excuses. I know what I have to do. I just always have excuses of not doing them.

Father, You see what I have written. I surrender all of these weaknesses to you and ask You for Your strength.
Your Daughter,
Katie

Marriage?

Don't know where to begin. Dating. Marriage. What is the purpose? How do you know someone is the person for you. When you have been single for 40 years, it is a whole different mindset of having to think about a man in your life. To top it all off, what happens when the person you are dating is far away. You live on an island in the Pacific and he lives in the states. Oh, so many questions. Who has the answers? God only you do. Please give me the answers that I will understand.

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His Mercies are New Every Morning

Sometimes I marvel at the fact that each morning we wake up.  As I awake, I think about the day before and sometimes feel as if I don't deserve to wake up this morning.  Yesterday could have been a horrible day full of anger, fret, worry, and sin.  Some mornings I wish I would not wake up at all. Other mornings, I am so thankful our Father is so merciful that He gave me another day of life.  What am I going to do with the day He has given me?  Will it be another day of anger, fret, worry and sin?  Or will it be a day of rejoicing, thanksgiving, trust and purity?  Today, here in Guam, it is now Thanksgiving.  Today is going to be a day of rejoicing, thanksgiving, trust and purity.  However, I can only do it through the grace of God.  I pray that all my friends, along with me, will spend this day in an attitude of Thanksgiving to our precious Father.  He gave us this day as a gift to us and you know the saying, how we spend this day is our gift to Him.  We all need God's grace and mercy to live the life He has called us to live.  I thank God for His Mercies are new every morning!

Jealousy!

Our Lord says He is a jealous God.  Many times we turn to people and even our pets for comfort.  Our Lord wants us to turn to Him for everything.  Isn't He the owner and supplier of everything?  We should go to the source of everything we need.  My cat of 15 years and 9 months was always there for me without even asking.  Now that he is gone, I can do nothing but rely on my Savior for comfort.   Christ is my source of all peace and comfort.  I did not realize this truth this past year.  This past year was very difficult because I did not trust Him in trials.  I pray now that I do not make the same mistake again.  I pray for all my friends that they too will always seek Christ first in time of trials.  It does not mean that we can't go to our friends for counsel.  But we must always put our Savior first and we must make sure that the counsel we receive from others matches with the council of Christ.  As the day of His return is fast approaching, let us put aside all things that come between us and our Lord.